feeling lost

okay so here lately am feeling under the weather am really missing matt and my boys.
i know matts taken care of what he needs to be but i miss my hubby i truely miss him. i try and keep my self busy so i dont have time to think but its not working anymore all i do is think about how hes missing out on the 4th and how he wont be here for boys brithday or mine yet alone his.
i feel as if am alone and i know am not i know that god is with me and all my family and friends but i just cant stop cryin on my days off its sad. i wont him to come home soon...


okay am closeing this blog now that am cryin yet again