super bowl sunday/ being married one year

well its a funny way of havien your one year on the same day as the super bowl. wont be able to for get that day lol. so tommorow is goin to be hard on me not haveing matt here to send are frist year together but i will make the best of it like i always do....he knows i love him

1 day

well now its one day till i have been married a year and its so hard being away from him i love you matthew

my diet

so i have started the biggest loser diet and excrise and let me tell you i feel the buring in my leges when i do it not only in my legs but in my ads cause you have to hold your ads in and its crazy..
but i have notice that i have alot of energy after doin it i will keep you up to date

5 days

okay so now am down to five days and i have been married a year to matt and am actualy inpressed that we have made it this fair with everythign that we have been through and are goin through.

so am geting exited i hope he remebers to call me that day..

i love him

FIRE PROOF

OKAY YEA SO WORKIN AT MOVIE GALLEY I CAN SEE MOVIES AND TELL YOU AS COUSTOMERS WHAT I THINK WELL I THINK THAT MY FAMILY SHOULD WATCH FIREPROOF ITS GREAT ITS A GOOD EYE OPENER


WATCH AND THEN GET BACK TO EM IT COMES OUT TUESDAY

10 DAYS

OKAY SO THERE IS 10 DAYS TILL MATT AND I HAVE BEEN MARRIED ONE YEAR, THE MARRIAGE HAS NOT BEEN EASY BUT NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE WE HAVE HAD ARE FIGHTS WE HAVE BEEN THOURGH A LOT ITS NOT A PREFECT MARRAGIE BUT ITS A HAPPYONE

WELL I LOVE EVERYONE AM GOIN TO BED NOW NIGHT

TORN PLEASE HELP

okay so i have this issue and its hard to ask for help. i have two loving kids ryan and christopher and right now i can see them cause i just to dont have the means to leave and take that much time off work. my dad wont let me talk to christopher and well i can call any time with in reason to talk to ryan i feel that the people am to trust i was rasied to trust just turn there back on you casue they have the one thing that they want and cant have and that is my kids. i love my kids and am not goin to have anyone tell me i dont. i will do anything to get them home where they belong. i just dont know who to trust anymore. you a girl should always be able to trust her father but i cant and its sad i just a dad again i want to know that my parnets love and a i feel as since ihave gotten married that they dont but my bothers can get married have kids and its great but the min i do its the worst thang that could happen why is it that am left out of everything i know am fair away but i cant help it. i understand that they have an issue with me getting married and them not being there but okay now get over it already. we planne on redoing it with everyone when matt gets home i now offiesly feel like am lone and its killing me. my heart hurts. i want those times back when i would read to christopher or just sit and watch tc with ryan. i want to be able to lay them in bed and say good night. this is what i want to know how its a mother who does drugs and leaves her child gets a second chance but a mother who gave her son to her parnets so she get a house and job cant get a second chance somthing is wrong with that picture. i all i want besides my kids home is a family i have a husband and sister in laws and a mother in law and father in law but wheres my family? i cry thinking about it cause it hurts i just my family. any way if you have any in sight or thoughts please share

12 days

okay so i know that the ones in my family know that in 12 days it will me one year that ihave been married to matthew patrick walker. its goin to be rough day with out him here but i am goin to work then come home and spend some time listenin to our song cause no matter how far or how long he is gone he will be my only one. i love him with everything in me and i know that he loves me back. i know that hes family loves me and has expected me in the family and i am thankful to have that. i dont think i tell them enough that am happy and thankful to have them.they have been a big help through all the times. i know you read this becky so i want to say thank you to you brandy and mom for keeping in your prays and helping me. if its one thing i have lreaned with the walker family the Lord is a big part of us, i will say that i have not been that close with the lord but here lately i have started to get rebuild my faith with the devos that My mother in law sent me for christmas i have a study i am goin to starte tuesday cause this week is very hacked with working 15 hour days with both jobs.
Any way enough about that again am excited that its almosted year i cant believe we have made this fair... I LOVE YOU MATTHEW

weather

just a little up date on the weather in wisconison as of right now we are in a wind chill advisery
we are going to have -45 dergess out side due to wind chill. it has been so cold my battery died in the truck. the guys at walmart in the tire and lube shop told me to place a blanket over my engine so it does not frezze and it will make it easier to start up.

now on a more personal note i talk to matthew and he is doin good home sick but good
they are talking about sending him to germany for his hearing but i dont know. i just pray everythign will be okay.so if everyone could keep us in pray and in thought matthew says he misses everyone and sends his love..
well its past my bed time you all so am goin to go bed and try to get some kind of sleep

HAPPY NEW YEAR

OKAY SO THIS IS THE FRIST NEW YEAR AM MARRIED AND THE FRIST WITH OUT MATTHEW. JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE I SEEN THE BALL DROP THEN WENT TO BED HAD TO WORK TODAY... GO ME WELL MISS THE FAMILY LOVE U ALL