sorry its been awhile

well since my last post matt is finaly out of the army and home. he got a job that he startes when he gets back from his vistie with mom dad and nikole. he will be working in a factory makeing yogurt gruss. but hey its a job for him. am still working at walmart, been there a year on the 14th of oct go me. but we are workin on the whole getting the family together and keeping this marrieage goin but its hard. but noones said it would be easy . well i will update more later time to go make the money

good old days

so i was going through my pics the other day and i found some that i really liked and they brought me to think that i miss the good old days. these days were the funniest days it just tells me how much i miss my hubby.....

feeling lost

okay so here lately am feeling under the weather am really missing matt and my boys.
i know matts taken care of what he needs to be but i miss my hubby i truely miss him. i try and keep my self busy so i dont have time to think but its not working anymore all i do is think about how hes missing out on the 4th and how he wont be here for boys brithday or mine yet alone his.
i feel as if am alone and i know am not i know that god is with me and all my family and friends but i just cant stop cryin on my days off its sad. i wont him to come home soon...


okay am closeing this blog now that am cryin yet again

update

well i have to say its been a while since i blogged last am goin to start off by saying that since the last one i lost my grandmother jesse. this pic was taken of me and my sister in law nikole at breakfast with mom before i got on the plane to head back to wi. am so glad to be a part of a family that cares and loves everyone i miss matt but i know he is doing what he has to do and i will get to join him soon he says so i will keep you guys updated

update on the biggest loser

this is a 12 week program and we are in to week 6 and am down to 299 i made it under 300 i did what i said i was goin to do now my goal is to be down 3 more pounds make small goals every week thanks for all your support

i did it

i am not under 200 pounds i did not think i could do it till someone once told me that cute out the soda and you will lose weight faster so i did and i have started eating smaller amounts i will be posting a pic of me very soon

PLEASE PRAY FOR MY LIL GUY

I GOT A PHONE CALL TO DAY SAYIN THAT RYAN WAS ILL AND THEY DONT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM BUT HE IS BURSING ALL OVER HIS BODY AND THEY CANT FIGURE OUT WHY SO PLEASE I ASK THAT EVERYONE JUST KEEP HIM IN YOUR PRAYS SORRY FOR THE SPELLIGN AM SO WORRIED AND CANT TYPE.

RYAN ANDREW ALLEN HALL MOMMY LOVES YOU

update on the biggest loser

well am not almost under 300 pounds my goal is to 2 pounds under 300 when i weight in on the thrusday can i do it yes i can and i feel great i see a differents in me already

THE NEW ME

OKAY SO SINCE I HAVE BEEN ON THE DEIT I HAVE LOST AN ADDITION TO THE 20 POUNDS ANOTHER 3. AND I HAVE ADD ANOTHER INCOME TO HOUSE AND THATS ME SELLING MARY KAY SOMTHING I LOVE TO DO I LOVE INACTING WITH OTHER LADYS.THE GOOD THING ABOUT SELLING MARYKAY IS IF I DO 3 FACILS 3 HUNDER DOLLARS IN SELLS AND GET 3 PEOPLE UNDER ME EVERY MONTH I COULD HAVE A CAR THAT MARY KAY WOULD PAY FOR IN AL LITTLE AS FOUR MONTHS AND THOSE OF U KNOW ME AND MATT WE HAVE A TRUCK YES AND WE ARE VERY THANKFUL TO HIS PARNETS FOR GIVING IT TO US BUT I CAN NOT DRIVE THAT TRUCK VERY WELL CAUSE A SICK SIFT AND ME DONT GET ALONG LOL. PLUS IT WILL BE EASIER WHEN HE GETS HOME FOR HIM TO HAVE HIS CAR AND ME TO HAVE MINE.....WELL THAT IS AN UPDATE FOR NOW I HAVE TOGET READY FOR WORK...IF U LIKE MARY KAY AND DONT HAVE ANYONE THAT IS SELLING IT LET ME KNWO AND I WOULD BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO HELP

SOMETHING I NEED HELP ON AM LOST WITH THIS

i really need help with this... tonight at work it was one of those nights topics that eats at me cause on the path with the lord and to hear someone they dont belive burns me in side.. so this guy sean that i work started talking about how he feels that god did not create life and that it was the big bang therpy. am not quiet sure where to go in that. he gave serval different opions about how he thought this.like how could one man make this world and how come her brought evil in the world.. okay so i have not read the bible all the way which did not help in this matter tonight so i had no clue what to say to him in repsone to his question i can say by the end of the night my head hurt and my heart ach cause i wanted to bring to the lord but i can see hes goin to be a hard one. this topic really bother me cause at one point he looks at me and say he was the son of god his mother was a vigran and still is it was like he was mocking the bible and it bother me...


So if u read this please help me i really could us it right now

WALMART

OKAY SO WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE WORKING AT WALMART FOR THE SECOND TIME IN MY LIFE. ONCE AS A TEENAGER AND NOW AS ADULT BUT YOU KNOW I LOVE IT. WORKING IN THE DEIL AND HAS OPENED MY EYES TO WHAT I REALLY WANT TO BE DOING I WANT TO COOK AND MAKE CAKES . SO AM THINKING OF DOING A 2YEAR PROGARM WHILE I WORK CAUSE THEN I CAN HAVE MY DGREE AND WORK DOING WHAT I REALLY ENJOY DOING.... THANKS TO WOUNDERFUL JOB I HAVE AT WALMART....

LOVE

SO I HAVE BEEN WORKING SO MUCH THAT I DONT HARDLEY HAVE TIME TO TALK ON THE PHONE WITH THE MAN I LOVE. BUT THEN HE LEAVES ME THESE REALLY SWEET VOICES THAT I CAN PLAY OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHICH SEEMS TO HELP ME. I ALSO TOOK PICS OF ME AND HIM AND PUT ON THE COMPUTER MOTIOR SO I CAN SEE HIM WHEN I CHECKING EMAILS BEFORE BED. I HAVE TO SAY I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR A YEAR I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FOUND THE MAN THAT MAKES ME WEAK IN THE KNEES CAUSE HE DOES WHEN HES THE WAY HE WAS WHEN WE MET. GOD HAS REALLY BLISSED THIS MARRIAGE

updates

so i have to tell you all somthing the move here has helped me see that i can find true friends i have two really good friends in my life one is michelle and the other is Ashley B or aka ash.
us girls love to talk shop and watch movies. we pretty much stay out of trouble and watch out for each other. the way i see it life is about changes and about getting the right friends that the lord puts in your path. he wants us to be with the right ppl in life and these two are... so i love you guys

to help everyone out ashley is the one in the top photo with me and michelle is in the bottom one these are the two are keeping me from goin crazy while matt is gone..........
love you guys

bigloser update

well its been a couple of weeks since my last post i belive and well i have already lost about 20 pounds. and i feel greeeaaaaaaaattttttttttt. but heres the part i cant make since of i have gottem me one of the step counter things and took 13,000 steps to day and now am tring to figure out how to convert those in to miles its confusing....i am so happy am lossing weight so i can be healthy and happy. cause this year i turn 28 and i dont want my body feeling like am getting old. plus i want my husband to come home and see that i did do what i said i would and that was to get healthy...

THE BIGGEST LOSER

SO MY WORK IS DOIN THE BIGGEST LOSER CONTEST AND THE PROCEEDS GO TO CHILDERNS MIRCAL NETWORK ITS A 12 WEEK PROGRAM AND IF U GAIN WIEGHT ITS 50CENTS A POUND AND IF LOSE THE MOST WEIGHT THEN YOU GET 50 DOLLARS AND THE REST GOES TO CMN WHICH AM GOIN TO DO IT CAUSE ITS GOIN TO HELP ME KEEP MOTIVE ON MY DEIT AND MY WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT SO AM POSTING A BEFORE PIC OF ME AND EACH THURSDAY I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED. NOT THE BEST PIC OF ME BUT HEY ITS FUNNY.. RIGHT NOW MY CURRENT WEIGHT IS 315 I WANT TO GET TO AT LEAST ABOUT 195 IS WHAT I SHOULD BE I THINK I CAN DO IT

my cake date for my one year

so since matt could not join me in are one year i had a few friends over and had this lovely cake made and we enjoyed it with him in mind. he did call and told me that he loved me and that he wished he could be home but couldn't it did how ever make things easier for me last night to have some friends around me. thank you ashley you are truely my best fiend love you girl

the newly wedd statuse

well today we are no longer newly wedds we will have been married a year at 2.52pm today and it feels good to know that we did not give up with things got tough it would have been just as easy for me to give up like i always do but i didnt i stay strong and went through it with a wounderful new family felt good actually...

super bowl sunday/ being married one year

well its a funny way of havien your one year on the same day as the super bowl. wont be able to for get that day lol. so tommorow is goin to be hard on me not haveing matt here to send are frist year together but i will make the best of it like i always do....he knows i love him

1 day

well now its one day till i have been married a year and its so hard being away from him i love you matthew

my diet

so i have started the biggest loser diet and excrise and let me tell you i feel the buring in my leges when i do it not only in my legs but in my ads cause you have to hold your ads in and its crazy..
but i have notice that i have alot of energy after doin it i will keep you up to date

5 days

okay so now am down to five days and i have been married a year to matt and am actualy inpressed that we have made it this fair with everythign that we have been through and are goin through.

so am geting exited i hope he remebers to call me that day..

i love him

FIRE PROOF

OKAY YEA SO WORKIN AT MOVIE GALLEY I CAN SEE MOVIES AND TELL YOU AS COUSTOMERS WHAT I THINK WELL I THINK THAT MY FAMILY SHOULD WATCH FIREPROOF ITS GREAT ITS A GOOD EYE OPENER


WATCH AND THEN GET BACK TO EM IT COMES OUT TUESDAY

10 DAYS

OKAY SO THERE IS 10 DAYS TILL MATT AND I HAVE BEEN MARRIED ONE YEAR, THE MARRIAGE HAS NOT BEEN EASY BUT NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE WE HAVE HAD ARE FIGHTS WE HAVE BEEN THOURGH A LOT ITS NOT A PREFECT MARRAGIE BUT ITS A HAPPYONE

WELL I LOVE EVERYONE AM GOIN TO BED NOW NIGHT

TORN PLEASE HELP

okay so i have this issue and its hard to ask for help. i have two loving kids ryan and christopher and right now i can see them cause i just to dont have the means to leave and take that much time off work. my dad wont let me talk to christopher and well i can call any time with in reason to talk to ryan i feel that the people am to trust i was rasied to trust just turn there back on you casue they have the one thing that they want and cant have and that is my kids. i love my kids and am not goin to have anyone tell me i dont. i will do anything to get them home where they belong. i just dont know who to trust anymore. you a girl should always be able to trust her father but i cant and its sad i just a dad again i want to know that my parnets love and a i feel as since ihave gotten married that they dont but my bothers can get married have kids and its great but the min i do its the worst thang that could happen why is it that am left out of everything i know am fair away but i cant help it. i understand that they have an issue with me getting married and them not being there but okay now get over it already. we planne on redoing it with everyone when matt gets home i now offiesly feel like am lone and its killing me. my heart hurts. i want those times back when i would read to christopher or just sit and watch tc with ryan. i want to be able to lay them in bed and say good night. this is what i want to know how its a mother who does drugs and leaves her child gets a second chance but a mother who gave her son to her parnets so she get a house and job cant get a second chance somthing is wrong with that picture. i all i want besides my kids home is a family i have a husband and sister in laws and a mother in law and father in law but wheres my family? i cry thinking about it cause it hurts i just my family. any way if you have any in sight or thoughts please share

12 days

okay so i know that the ones in my family know that in 12 days it will me one year that ihave been married to matthew patrick walker. its goin to be rough day with out him here but i am goin to work then come home and spend some time listenin to our song cause no matter how far or how long he is gone he will be my only one. i love him with everything in me and i know that he loves me back. i know that hes family loves me and has expected me in the family and i am thankful to have that. i dont think i tell them enough that am happy and thankful to have them.they have been a big help through all the times. i know you read this becky so i want to say thank you to you brandy and mom for keeping in your prays and helping me. if its one thing i have lreaned with the walker family the Lord is a big part of us, i will say that i have not been that close with the lord but here lately i have started to get rebuild my faith with the devos that My mother in law sent me for christmas i have a study i am goin to starte tuesday cause this week is very hacked with working 15 hour days with both jobs.
Any way enough about that again am excited that its almosted year i cant believe we have made this fair... I LOVE YOU MATTHEW

weather

just a little up date on the weather in wisconison as of right now we are in a wind chill advisery
we are going to have -45 dergess out side due to wind chill. it has been so cold my battery died in the truck. the guys at walmart in the tire and lube shop told me to place a blanket over my engine so it does not frezze and it will make it easier to start up.

now on a more personal note i talk to matthew and he is doin good home sick but good
they are talking about sending him to germany for his hearing but i dont know. i just pray everythign will be okay.so if everyone could keep us in pray and in thought matthew says he misses everyone and sends his love..
well its past my bed time you all so am goin to go bed and try to get some kind of sleep

HAPPY NEW YEAR

OKAY SO THIS IS THE FRIST NEW YEAR AM MARRIED AND THE FRIST WITH OUT MATTHEW. JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE I SEEN THE BALL DROP THEN WENT TO BED HAD TO WORK TODAY... GO ME WELL MISS THE FAMILY LOVE U ALL